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Structure. It is not my natural forte in life but I have found that structure has bode me well when I am trying to make major changes in my life. When things are spinning around in a disorganized fashion around me, I get overwhelmed and you all know what being overwhelmed leads to, don’t you? Let me remind you…It leads to wanting just a second of escape from the insanity. Hmmm…how do we get that escape…that delicious and hard to resist numbness. For me it wasn’t drink or drugs…but food. Wow! How unusual am I? Keeping my mind in gear in the iChange program has been some work. Just like when one starts something new, there is always passion and great expectations but that wears off over time. If it is a new job, a new significant other, a new baby…there is a lot of joy but also a lot of work to make it through the challenging times. I am being challenged right now in my health program. I had some great structure going on with a great routine I had built into my life. All the puzzle pieces had finally fallen into place with a path to my guide of daily good health without yo-yoing back and forth. Then this big storm hit where I live and for the past week I have lost control of the structure I had built over the past five months. My exercise program needed to be adapted to not going to a gym. I have been housebound more than usual and bored. (You can only clean out so many closets and watch so many Lifetime movies without running out of the room pulling your hair and screaming). I can’t take my dog to the dog park which had become a regular two hours of my day. So…I had a choice. Go back to binging out of frustration or recognize the challenges and fight for what I have accomplished thus far. I chose the latter. I have not been 100% there in both my eating and exercise but I am not binging and feeling down so that is a huge plus. I am not blaming anyone or anything, I am taking life in stride knowing the wun will come out tomorrow.

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